About Bev

Most of my life, I’ve had a  fascination with the ‘unknown’ Universe and have generally approached  this curiosity as  an explorer on a discovery adventure.  With the introduction of this blog,  my journey with Ulf has taken yet another turn in the road. (link to that journey, Dementia: Closer to God is at top of this page).  I’m uncertain the reason for continuing writing, so this is just another ‘one moment at a time’ venture.  I invite you to join me on this new expedition.

The word ‘experiencer’ would best describe me.  I’ve always jumped into the lake, then learned how to swim.  After college, I worked with children who were labeled ‘less than perfect’.  I worked in Europe for a two years, then moved to Colorado to get another degree. However, my real lessons came from life and the many people I met, like Fritz Perls, who developed Gestalt Therapy.

At 28, I had cancer of the kidney and was told I may not live. Two days earlier and feeling good,  I had written an essay on Death. I keep writing down thoughts and in ’75 published a small, beautiful book of  poetry called, “Grains of Sand” by Beverly Robbins (before I married)   It’s on Amazon.  In the ‘summer of ’67.  I drove my VW to San Fransisco.  I found a great job and had a fabulous time. I didn’t die.  With this ‘sentence’ over my head, the prospects of marriage dimmed.

However,  that all changed when I met Ulf Hamilton.  He had separated from his alcoholic wife.  They had two children age 8 and 10. When we married two years later, the children came to live with us.  That’s ‘jumping into the lake”!!  I did a short film about this that is on YouTube. (Check link to the right).

I met  Judy Skutch Whitson, who in ’75, introduced many of us to A Course in Miracles (acim.org).  The Course became the central touchstone in my journey.  When I met Ulf  4 years later, he also was deeply touched by it’s message.  Bill Thetford, the transcriber of the Course and a friend, did a reading at our wedding.  Years later, I hosted an internet talk show called “A Course in Miracles and Other Fun Things”.  (Check links to the right).

Ulf and I shared a very full life filled with love, laughter, raising the children, starting a business and of course, challenges.  There is more on Ulf’s personal history on Dementia: Closer to God (link at top of page).  We explored many ‘spiritual’ paths that had similar themes as the Course, such as Eckhart Tolle, writings and meditation from the Buddhist tradition and fun books like those by Richard Bach.  Our mutual interest in this far reaching way of being, was an essential bond in our relationship that gave it a depth I hadn’t imagined.

With Ulf’s diagnosis of dementia and sleep apnea in ’03, I felt I had just jumped into yet another lake and was drowning.  It is such a helpless feeling dealing with a loved one in crises.  The blog, Dementia:Closer to God, allowed me to express the love, creativity and humor that defined the challenge of sharing this incredible experience with Ulf.